When I was little, all I ever wanted was to grow up. Being older was a simile for freedom, certainty, and more adventures. That perspective shifted and my understanding of “growing up” was just youthful naivety. Because the first thing that I’ve come to realize is there’s much more uncertainty in growing up than there was before. I feel like I’ve been told to “fake it ’til I make it”, more times than I can count.
And I’m always wondering, when the hell am I going to make it?
I’m at a point in my life where I’m not quite sure where this journey will take me. And I’m sure many of you who are reading this could relate in some way. But as each day passes, I listen more, I learn more, and I become more. It’s an extraordinary thing to allow yourself to become the person you are today. And it takes even more strength to not bring yourself down if you’re turning out different than the person you always thought you’d be. Life changes. So for anyone who’s at a point where they’re feeling a little stagnant and unsure of where your life’s headed: take a breath, let’s have a toast.
Let’s cheers to the things that you no longer tolerate because you’ve learned to value yourself. To the people you’ve learned to let go. To the expectations you’ve heightened in the aftermath of every downfall.
Cheers to the things you didn’t see coming. To the obstacles you’ve overcame even when you thought it couldn’t get better. To the problems that you’ve solved even when you were on the verge of breaking down.
Cheers to your flaws. To the ones that you’ve embraced, and to the ones that you’re still working to love. To the goodness that you embody even when others cannot see it. To allowing both the light and the darkness to abide by each other, and to remember who you are, even when the scales tip back and forth.
Not one person in this world is perfect. Not one person in this world has a life that didn’t possess doubt and uncertainty. We all become an odd concoction of our experiences. And in the face of uncertainty, I hope you all find what you’re looking for out there.
I hope you find happiness that exists on your own terms. That you have the courage to pursue the things that set your soul on fire. Don’t let convenience, comfort, and the easiness of standing still put out that flame.
I hope you find love that stirs the deepest parts of you. Find someone who makes falling for them less fearful, and someone who you can’t help but choose everyday. I hope you find someone who shows you just how deeply you can feel, and just how deeply you can love.
I hope you find acceptance. To allow yourself to forgive others and yourself for the mistakes that are being made. To remember that you’re a human being capable of inflicting pain on others. That there is always room to be better. To do better.
There’s so much to feel in this world. I hope you feel it all.
But most of all, I hope you find yourself out there. Be kind to yourself in life’s chaotic journey. Be proud of the person you’re becoming, and embrace the person you were yesterday. Appreciate where you are- even if it’s not where you thought you’d be. Fall in love with the process, with the messiness and confusion of it all.
Cheers to you.
Ignite your spark,
Thanks for reading, xoxo.